Tuesday, December 01, 2009

On Welcoming the Last month

I remembered I told someone that, I die die also want that planner, so must harworkingly go to Starbucks. It wasn't easy, since the soulmate wasn't hanging out as much in Starbucks anymore now that we found out other cheaper places with better wifi connections. But since I first set eyes on the Christmas promotion then, I decided I want it.

At last, it's finally in my arms.

Thank God no one actually knows that I was hugging it like a crazy guy in Starbucks when I finally got my 11th stamp which entitled me this planner.

See, before we know it, it's already the last month of the year. No doubt it feels all Christmasy in the shopping mall. The last that I was in the Curve, they've gotten all the Christmas tree in already; Subang Parade has like hundreds of little ones all around as well. It's pretty obvious that this is pretty much the most happening celebration all year round, as how I see it.

Who would've known, in an blink of an eye, we're waking up to December. I'm pretty sure, before we know it, we'll be waking up to 2010 already. Of course, sooner or later, we'll wake up realising we're 50 years old already. Who knew, one day we might wake up remembering we're already in palliative care waiting to die.

One of the doctors from HOSPIS Malaysia talked to us one day about palliative care, what they do and how they do it, and how a lot of medical doctors not sure when to stop saving lives, despite it's what we're suppose to do. A lot of the times, we will not stop resuscitating, and we defibrilate and we pump more drugs, in the hope of extending the lives of the patient longer. More often than not, the dying patients are put through a lot of torture.

We know clearly what is life and what is death. But most of us, if not all, don't know what is dying.

There was a patient who had a nasopharyngeal carcinoma, terminal stage, waiting to die. She was just 30 years old. When the doctors asked her how she's holding up, she replied, "I'm fine. I'm dying, I accepted it and I'm ready for it." And she asked the doctor back, "Are you able to accept the fact that I'm dying?" It hit me hard, because it later dawned to me, most of the time, the patients themselves are able to accept the fact that they're dying, but we're the ones who couldn't. We just couldn't accept the lives of a human being is ending. The process before it ends, is pretty unbearable.

So now as I opens up this planner, I looked through the pages. It starts with the last month of 2009. December.

And it ends with January 2011.

17 Jujus:

manglish said...

so young....haizzzz....btw is this theh same as what TZ had?

Chris said...

Gosh!! Time flies... Year end oredi.. I still have lots of plan didn;t do yet.

the happy go lucky one said...

nice planner u got ekkeee...
and the death... tats a great knowledge behind for the doctor, the family and most importantly the dying person.

reanaclaire said...

she is very brave.. it takes a lot of courage and guts to accept the end part...
i have a planner too.. 2010.. i need it cos my memory is getting shorter if u know what i mean..

KY said...

Almost end of the year and it's time to look through my blog on what I've done throughout the year.
I think it's easy for someone to just leave like that, but it's tough for those who loved you to keep on surviving without you.

Medie007 said...

manglish, u mean the planner? yeaps. starbie's planner. hehehe

Chris, yealor... so fast... :( i'll just bring forward my plans. wakakakka.

happy go lucky, yeaps, love my planner so much. kakaka.

Medie007 said...

reanaclaire, lols, i know wat u mean. my memory also starting to slow down dy, that's why i want the planner. hahaha

KY, that's a very deep thought-provoking statement u have there. :) totally true, it's the people who're still alive where problems are concerned.

Bravebear said...

Death is actually a beautiful thing. At least that is what i think. When a person nears death, they show their more vulnerable sides. Letting the defense and sheilds down. Knowing the end is near, they appreciate every last moment of their life.

The end of something marks the beginning of another.

Bengbeng said...

i am not comfortable with a woman dying so young or a man

Gratitude said...

Wuz it worth paying for all the expensive drinks...to juz get that palnner?
+Ant+

Medie007 said...

Bravebear, wow u're weird... haha. but i agree with what u said. :)

Bengbeng, it's all a process of life and death... so... can't escape...

Gratitude, YES!!!

nicky05 said...

yeah!!!! It's very sad when seeing someone passed away even though they are not related.....haiz...

Bengbeng said...

we had a discussion abt this writing of yrs -> group of abt a dozen including lawyer, engineer, pensioner,accountant, businessman, civil servant, seminary student, pharmacist... imagine it elicited so much heated discussion n response.

'patient who had a nasopharyngeal carcinoma'

A Common Singaporean said...

Yo!

Its a pretty sad scenario. I thought doctors have gotten used to seeing dying patients. I guess you dont actually know unless u r in the actual situation, as a doctor.

So I am counting on yr pics of the STARBUCKS (btw my fav coffee outlet) planner to cheer me up! And a cup of the Ice Toffe Nut Latte Christmas Blend.

Merry Christmas friend.

[SK] said...

i patronise starbucks like hell last year to get the planner, but ended up keeping it intact under the drawer.. think that would be the 1st and the last time already :p

TZ said...

@Manglish: Yup... i got one and medie007 got one too... and Little Grey dot also got one ... who else?

wow~ dude, so fast you already write your name already :p

Bradley Jesse Hyunckel said...

What will we go after we done our life here?nobody knows...will we receive the punishments what we done in our past?or straight to reincarnation