What did I do for you to treat me like this?
What have I done onto you?
Why do I deserve to be punished like this?
Is it that fun for you to see me suffer in misery like this?
Not once. Not twice.
But this is the 3rd time you're doing the same thing to me.
Can you imagine how much pain I'm suffering right now?
Pretending to be happy when the fact was, I feel so angry and mad at myself.
And I guess I won't really be blamming myself entirely now.
I'm going to partially blame you for it too.
I've blamed myself enough, and I've been working really hard.
I've tried. I tried. And I'm still trying.
But you doing this to me again and again, you're not helping me.
I'm really on the verge of breaking.
And I just can't let the emotions to sip in at this moment,
knowing that those who love me will feel the pain too.
Will you for once show me that you care in at least a less harsher way?
I'm not as strong as you think I am.
True, I've been working.
And I've been standing up after the previous 2 disappointments.
But I can't continuously accept this kind of defeats.
It kills off all my confidence.
It does.
You do.
You always did.
And you just did.
Again.
I hate you.
Yet I know I can never escape from you.
Quoting Raph Waldo, our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising up everytime we fall. Somehow it just seem so distant to be motivational.
I'm tired really. I'm really really tired.
Wednesday, May 06, 2009
On Failing Me (Again!)
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13 Jujus:
*hugs*
When we fail, I mean - fall, what do we do? We pick ourselves back up, and we walk the same path again and try to do better.
You know we've got your back. Stay strong.
time to do self-reflection then~
stay hard...i mean stay strong! :)
dude, learnt from what coz the failure ... let go and move on .. focus on the future :)
its important to have a clear mind now.. try to focus one one thing at a time.. hopefully it will help..
again, add oil, drink less ;p LOL
life is a continuous journey. as folks we got to square our shoulders n move on in spite or despite of what is ahead or around us.
anyway that is the way i look at stuff :)
Hey, hang in there. I think nobody expected that result. Hope you're doing alright now.
There are better things to focus on, I'm sure.
In unfortunate circumstances, I alwiz think of the less fortunate. It helps lots, well, at least to me.
+Ant+
Be ye lamps unto yourselves. Be thee thine own inspiration. :)
a prize to pay eh. a lesson to be well learnt. :) be more responsible for urself. u can be a doctor then. a responsible 1. gud luck :)
*hugs and kisses*
i failed my physics too ... but my college mate got too stress and cried... haiz... life is tough lar~~
When things get this bad, it could only get better. Lighten up. Take care, k? xx
long time haven't been blogging and blog surfing..
stay strong.. try to learn from mistakes and find a better solution..
*hugs*
Failing sucks but you tried your best - and that's the important thing. Medicine's not an easy road and plenty of obstacles will lie in your path. Perseverance is key.
Don't give up.
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