Monday, April 11, 2011

部落各

那天晚上,我们吃了宵夜回来,我和朋友聊到我这部落各。

其实,我还蛮想让它死去就算了。但是,这两个星期,我在家里也不知道做什么是好。没心情出去玩,也没什么想和别人聊天。开了部落各,这两只手,也就开始打了几行字。从那天起到现在,每一个以华语记载的,都在说着我心情无法以语文形容的伤痛。

我知道,我的华语程度最多只不过是六年级,但,想了又想,英语或华语都无所谓。

那天到现在,心情都不镇定。

所以,每天的部落各都记载了我的悲哀。

朋友说,他已经猜到,我的部落各会陷入一段悲伤的时期。

“这么一个打击,你期望什么,我哈哈大笑的么?”

“没有,你可以放声大哭,但也别郁闷到太久。”

我说,我又再开始写,但我不是盼望着读者的同情;毕竟,一定会有人这么说。你不用留评论,我也能猜到。

“别这么说,有谁会以这样的理由来引人的同情?你我都不想。你把心情写出来,有比较好一点吗?”

“毕竟有稍微的帮助。”

我,也可能靠着部落各,从
郁闷中,慢慢把心情捡起来。

9 Jujus:

[SK] said...

對, 我想沒有人會用這樣的方式來博取同情, 而且有這個必要嗎?? 你要的是抒發內心的掙扎, 寫出來發泄, 再等時間把傷口復元, 很快就好了~~ :)

Anonymous said...

for goodness sake medie, quit wallowing in self pity. the only people who should be pitied are the japanese people esp the fukushima plant workers whose destiny is death right now & others who have lost everything, Homes, Job, Uncertain Future & Radiation.

“Life is kind of like a rollercoaster. During the low points, you just have to stay on that rollercoaster because it will go up sooner or later" these were the words echoed by a ca survivor who was diagnosed with osteosarcoma at age 17. His leg was amputated yet he wanted to go on living.

What are you fighting against yourself ?

Twilight Man said...

Medie - Have you stopped blogging in English? I guess I have to take up Mandarin lessons now...


Anon - Good advice!

Robinn T said...

博同情?有没有哦?这是你的部落各,你要做什么就什么咯~尽量把心中的伤害与不甘放出来呗!你算幸运咯,有那么多朋友,家人还有部落客关心你~加油吧!

CH Voon said...

Just write what you like to write...

this is your blog...

LittleLamb said...

I cant read chinese.. when u blogging back in English

Medie007 said...

我只有苦笑。第二个留言就有人这么说。我不懂你是谁,也不想知道。你以为我想啊?你来试试,当你无法毕业,当你的前途工作机会都泡汤时,看你能不能在短短2天内把心情捡起来?你能,不代表别人能。日本地震后患难堪,毕竟值得大家同情。可我以很清楚的写了我没有希望你的同情。我惩罚自己,是因为我觉得自己对不起家人,自己没用; 家人明明在这四月中应该高高兴兴来为我庆祝成功,现在反而是过来安慰我。你觉得我很好过么?

Twilight & Little Lamb, many English posts had been scheduled, sometime soon. just watch the space.

Robinn T said...

just drop it. take a sabbatical. chill off for a week or two. by the time you are back you are on a roll by then. you deserve rests by now.

JN said...

hmm... black with purple, ... your blog worth follow.


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