Friday, April 08, 2011

睡个觉,再看看

爸爸是家中比较坚强的那一个,也不知怎么,姐姐和弟弟都遗传他这一点,我,却是比较容易受打击而气馁的那一个。


妈妈那一天又说,“爸爸以前也走过了风风雨雨,总算才有这么一天。你不可以因为这么小小一个挫折而放弃一切。我知道,你很难受,我也很难受。我现在胸口像裂开来一样。可是你一定要记住,我们都在这里为你默默打气。你不可以放弃,你知道吗?弟弟远在捷克很看重你,你一放弃,他怎么办?”

爸爸说,“不要紧,你可以的。睡个觉,起来后再打算这条路要怎么走。现在心情,我知道很乱,不能够好好想,不要紧,先去休息。”

但,他们也没想到,我那一晚回到家,在床上翻来翻去,怎么都无法入睡。心里一直在希望这只不过是一场恶梦,一定要醒来。

两个小时后的我,躺在床上,望着天花板,也不知要怎么办才好。一身四肢都无力,嘴巴连讲话的力气也没了。

隔天早上,妈妈打个电话给我,“昨晚有睡觉吗?”

“我睡不着。”

“其实我也是..."

6 Jujus:

Robinn T said...

your mum is also really worried about you. Come on medie! You are better than this! not only your bro, I'm also looking up to you! If you let go, I might not have the guts to take up also! So seriously, take up the challenge and GO FOR IT!

ZT said...

加油!走出阴霾之后,会是一片光亮。不要气馁!

joanne said...

我是过来人,非常了解你现在的心情。不过请相信我,事情没你想象的那么糟。
我曾经也象你一样崩溃失眠,也想过要放弃。还好我的家人一直在我身旁支持我,让我想通了,多给自己一次机会,证明自己也是行的,当初失败的原因只是自己一时的忽略。
当一位真正PASS的医生,好过当一位BORDERLINE医生,所以一定要利用这个时候来好好磨练自己哦!
笑一笑没烦恼,有时侯已经很努力了,但结果却是一个屁。相信每个人都经历过,呵呵。没办法咯,只好再努力一次咯,就这么简单。加油^^

[SK] said...

其實不是一個睡覺就好了, 重要的是你好好的放鬆自己的思維, 調試自己的情緒, 面對前面的一條康莊大道.. 朋友, 加油!! :)

Danny said...

like i said earlier.. take ur time.
decide when u r ready :)
take care :))

Michelle Mak said...

come on... things will be alright..
u know wat..
we only have a pair of parents in this world..
they are the one who brought us into this world..
u know wat is the best way to repay our gratitude towards them?

by taking good care of ourself... by not making them to worry about us..

parents would be glad if their children excel well.. tat would be another point for them to be happy.. but if u fail one day... they'll be there to hold our hands to walk with us again till we are steady enough they will tend to let us go... not that they don love us.. but in order to love us.. they want us to find our own ways to succeed in life..

failure is just part and partial of life.. me too faced so many obstacles through out my this three year course.. but i stand up each time i fall.. knowing tat not only my family is waiting for me.. but patients out there are waiting for our healing hands.. to change their life.. to make this world a better place..

u fail.. accept it... stand up again... knowing the fact u have so many ppl by ur side supporting u..

cry as much as u want.. but when the time comes.. tell ur self its time to stand again to move forward... to make things better..

and i bet ur mum and dad will be even happier to see u in that way...
no harm to feel the pain of failing.. failing is to make u a better person...

for eg.. u have two case in A&E.. u was resuscitating a patient.. and that patient died... u don tell u u will stand there and cry because u fail to save his or her life.. but wat u can do is... save the other patient life who is waiting for u to save him...

i know u can do it... stand up, wipe all the tears and start all over again.. *BIG HUGS*