Thursday, April 07, 2011

自尽

想着想着,也总算有这一天。


“我真的很累了,又再一次的打击,我真的很难受。”

“我知道,我的心也碎了。胸口真的好痛。” 妈妈在电话另一边尽量不哭。

“我不想在撑下去了。我真的不想了。”

“不可以!你千千万万不可以放弃!展,你不可以放弃!你一放弃,我也不想活了。你一定要撑下去!”

“我很失望,你知道吗?很失望。”

“我知道,留得青山在,不怕没柴烧。你不要胡思乱想。你一定要答应我。不可以做些什么傻事知道吗?你一定要站起来,你不可以一倒下去就放弃!”

但,妈妈总算也没有阻止到我的念头。

“你一定要坚持下去。你不可以做什么傻事的,知道吗!? 万一你发生了什么事,我活下去还有什么意义?”

我没说什么,头脑还在想着要跳楼还是吸车子一氧化碳自尽。

“展,答应我。不要想些什么的。回家去,睡个觉,什么事情都有解决的方法,但是千千万万不可以放弃, 答应我。”

在崩溃的当儿,想了想了,觉得20楼也算是“死”的肯定。

我,就回家去了。家,也在20楼高...


11 Jujus:

Danny said...

hmm.. thats is seriously not a good choice ..
just take some time to gather your thoughts.. then move on :)

[SK] said...

you may think of doing that to end things up, but please DO NOT ever take action.. you still have a bright future ahead of you.. it's just one of the many downs in a life, look at the peaks you are gonna have.. move on with bravery dude.. :)

ZT said...

medie, 千万别乱来,别以为自尽是一个永远的解决方案,这是世界上最行不通的方法。要勇敢地面对事实,坚强的。

不要因为一个跌倒就因此而放弃了,也不要责怪自己没能把事情办好,因为每一人的人生本来就是充满着坎坷与棘荆。

在哪里跌倒就从那里站起来,即便是用了比一般人迈向成功走得更久的时间,也不用做比较,跟自己奋斗就好,因为是你自己的人生。

如果你把它给结束了,你就看不到以后你这一个人生的路,到底是怎么一个人生。一定要走下去,是好是坏,不用紧,至少你有一份勇敢的毅力活下去。相信你都会有对未来的憧憬(成为一名医生,结婚,生子,当个孝顺的儿子。。。),要活着才能尝到。

相信我,也相信你自己,勇敢地面对挫折,再继续努力,让你的生命延续它的故事,你的人生会有不一样的感动,因为在你的人生篇章里,多了那一册,属于你自己的奋斗故事。

p/s:也算是为了妈妈,为了家人,不要伤透他们的心。我也算是你的部落格的“沉默读者”,每天都有阅读你的文章。我会在心灵上支持你,在遥远的他方,虽看不见也听不着你的苦,但我体会到你的伤感。看了你这篇文章之后,我不断地祈祷,希望你想得开,因为很想认识你这位朋友,很想每天阅读你的部落格。

Robinn T said...

喂喂~不要吓我LEH.没中,还有下一个测验吗!你身边不止你,你妈,你的考试罢了~还有我们LEH~
多一次!我也崩溃过,失落后,明天还是要过,自尽不会解决,只会增添麻烦。

相信我,下次一定行!我也是过来人,想要自尽的念头,我也有过。想回来,那样也没意思。还是在拼下去。

所以,拼啊!!!!!!!!!

ismail vietnamese said...

cheer up bro. all of us have our ups and downs. ending one's life is not the answer. if anything, seek help.

Reanaclaire said...

oh..now in Mandarin... sorry, illiterate.. :)

Chin Ren said...

近期我也有想自尽的念头,伤心过度。 但是,想到还有很多其它美好的事物,一路来只是被自己忽略。自尽等于在逃避,不能解决问题。自尽是严重的罪孽,万万不得。想想你的父母亲人,他们还是那么的关心你。不值得去自尽。

我支持你!加油!

Anonymous said...

Don't ever think of stupid act bong. Think of your parents and family. Take care

Sharen

cpl said...

I know I have no right to say anything as I'm not in your shoes, but know that I truly understand how u feel. Don't give up, if others can do it, so can you. You are not the first person who has experienced this, and you won't be the last. You have my support all the way. I'm here for you if you need anything at all.

CH Voon said...

dont give up so easy.

a lot things waiting for you.

Icanstillbeagaywithmyreligion said...

You do not want to do that. Please, don't. Bong, I really need to tell you something.

My brother was a really smart boy. But he suddenly had a thing going with a girl then but then, he hid that relationship from us, his family members. His grades fell and largely, I feel it is not because of the girl but the ACT to conceal the relationship. He was going out at odd hours and making late calls.

What am I telling you is, perhaps, maybe perhaps, you would be able to study better if you are open about your sexuality to your parents. Don't hide it in the closet any longer.

I am from your faculty and living in your hostel block. YOU have no idea how many closets are behind these single-roomed doors. And what nonsense goes around here. And trust me, the good looking ones-are gay.