I guess I spoke too soon. "graces the new week with gratitude for things are starting to turn around finally..."
I hate myself for thinking that things are turning for the better, that I'm picking up pace in my studies and case summaries and what not. But look at me now. Look at me!
Blardy fool! I'm so embarrassed and angry at myself that I really don't know what I need to do. I can't get over it. I just don't know how to. I feel like looking for a cave and hide myself in there, yet I could find none.
I was so mad and pissed, that it feels as if my heart was about to explode. I couldn't breath, and when I tried to, I had to take in deep breath. Suffocated... and I don't know... I feel like commiting suicide...
It's as if I've just been strip naked in front of my whole class. If they're strangers, I guess I could still get over it. But when it comes to your own friends, close friends and colleagues, the embarassment was thousand folds.
How could I ever face him again?! How could I ever look at him in the eyes? How could I ever stand behind him and listen to his tutorials in the ward? How could I?! I couldn't! I'm so so sorry. I'm just so terribly ashamed at myself... I... really don't know what to do anymore.
I really did tried. I tried to stay awake. And I've been trying not to let him see me. But I guess he did...
That when I was nudged, the entire class was looking at me. I didn't know what to do.
"If you want to sleep, go back to your own room, I don't mind. But I don't like you to sleep in my class. I know all these are basics, if you find it too boring, just leave. Go back to your room, study in your room, I don't mind. Goodness, this is so disappointing."
I'm disappointed in myself.
I truly regretted that I dozed off in his class...
I... ARGH!
Monday, April 13, 2009
On not Knowing Where to Hide
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c'mon dun be too hard on yourself. at least no flying chalk or flying marker pen was aimed at you ;p
Ha ha ha! Be a man ok and not let small things bother you. Look at it as a good remedy to keep you awake in future. You want me to buy you asam-asam?
Dude.... sleep early, get a Starbie coffee ... errrr... am i saying Starbie coffee .... kakaka :p Anyway, just grab a coffee or chocolate into the class ... chocolate could help you stay awake ... :-)
If u are too sleepy and u know its dangerous to sleep in class... May be u should jus get a walk outside or go toilet to keep urself awake...
If I'm sleepy, I usually go toilet to get a smoke :D Then catch a breeze before going back to class...
Lecturer wont put little things in ur their heart.. At least, ur popular now ^^
"Lecturer won't so kira-kira about small little things in their heart"
Type sry..
And you'll keep falling asleep in lectures regardless until you find some way to keep distracted / awake!
owh dear i had that experienced before right infront of my crush and he laughed at me!!!!!that was freaking embarassing and and the whole class was like ," how many sessions he had last night?"
i understand but, sometimes, the body does take over our conscious, just that we need to get over it sometimes... best way is whenever u feel sleepy, start mumbling to yourself...
Try chewing some gum to kick the dozing habit.
+Ant+
it will pass over. the lecturer will not be so 'small' n keep it to heart. get enough rest please.
after all for all he knows u had justification to b tired. family emergency, etc etc etc. dont b so hard on yrself. for all you know he has oledi forgotten abt it oledi.
raymond, i would rather prefer a flying chalk or marker pen aimed at me rather than that verbal sarcasm...
twilight zone, sometimes, a man's got to be a bit women too. shall learn to drink coffee instead of tea next time.
tz, didn't knw chocolate helps? i thought it promotes sleepiness...
jerry, i do that, but it doesn't really help. being notorious more likely...
janvier, any suggestion?
binn, go mumble to urself then. the class doesn't need someone who mumbles when everyone's listening to a presentation...
anton, chewing gum isn't really allowed in class...
bengbeng, i hope he wouldn't.
Lol! Most students have dozed off in class at least once in their life.
I think that if you have good results at the end of the day, then sleeping in class is a small matter lah.
Drink redbull before class. That's bound to keep you awake the whole day :)
hmm.. just make sure that u get enuff rest before entering his class next time... :)
next time put porn on ur ipod touch or wateava so u'll be awake in the class~ ;)
Why you sleep in class? Not enough sleep, is it? Do something about it lah! If nothing change, then...well...nothing will change!
perky, that's wat my roomie said also. he said he doesn't understand why i made a big fuss about it... but i guess, well, i was really really too humiliated lor...
danny, thre will never be enough rest lor..
queen B, i dun have ipod.
jaded jeremy, i didn't sleep intentionally lar... i dozed off...
Perky OMG! Drink redbull before class??? LMAO ha ha ha! Ah Bong will get a boner instead!
yishhh...
but then again... boner is still better than dozing off. lol
That lecturer WAS quite scathing in his remark. But I gotta admit reason is on his side. Don't feel bad about it, it's not like you wanted to sleep in his class. Just get something to freshen yourself if you feel tired. Or ask to go to the toilet and walk around for a bit. It helped for me.
you're not a real student if you've never fallen asleep man! hehe! chill lah! everybody does that all the time :)
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