I had the most troubling dream not long ago. I remembered I woke up feeling irritated and angry, and till date, I still feel that worry in me. I dreamt about myself seeing my future. Now the tiny details I couldn't remember, but roughly I could tell it was a dream about my future.
I had the opportunity to read a book, or a record sheet, something like the Book of Life where the whole life of a man is recorded. And as we all know, it's probably possible for a human beings to even listen to what was recorded about oneself when the 'judgement' is done. But somehow, I was given this once in a lifetime experience to travel into the realm after death where we get to see what we would be like. Perhaps, some angels visited me and gave me a forsee what my future holds.
So I see what I would be doing after I graduate. It was a relieve I would be able to graduate medical school. And there's all the details. Couldn't quite remember. I supposed there would be records of travelling, or some tiny achievements. Of course, those glorious history when I was in my teens. But, the record ends at the year 2030-ish. I was curious and asked how come there's no record after that year. And I was told, I was no more exist on earth.
I was shocked, to be honest. I did a mental calculations and to find that I would be dead even before I reach 50, it's quite a bad news. I mean, seriously?! How could I be dead so young? I'm too young to die! Really! It was a sad thing that I didn't find out what was my cause of death.
When I got back to reality, I was very troubled. I didn't tell my mum about it. But I was very worrisome. I kept thinking what happened. I couldn't possibly die so soon right? I had a whole long list of things I want to do. Travelling for one. And I don't recall that grand dream of myself having my own Bong Hospital coming true in that book. I sat down, losing hope. If I were to die so soon, why do I even bother wasting my time on books and grumbling how tough medical school is, when I could actually just quit and do what I like? Yes I almost gave up. Almost.
It was later on that I came up with some reasons why I should just accept that fact, and think of it not as something bad. At least I won't need to bear the pain of losing my parents. That I wouldn't need to worry about the future generations needing to live in a diseased-earth. That I don't have to live in the fear of uncomfortable weather and temperature. And I thought about that dream again. I would die young. It's still so unfair! I have so many dreams and ambitions, and how come I wasn't given the chance to go for them? But in the end, I decided it's not worth fretting. I'll just forget about the dream and continue living my life to the fullest.
And I woke up to see the familiar bed I went to sleep on the night before. It was just a dream. A troubling nightmare.
The following day, I told KK about my dream. I said I dreamt about me seeing my own future. That I would die VERY young. KK was puzzled. And I showed him my palm. "Gasps! Your life IS short!" And I started to feel troubled and irritated again.
There's the palm reading by all those men who tells you about fate and stuff. I don't know how to read, but Dad did take a look at my palm when I was younger. He said I would be very troubled with my life, that I'm emotional, that's why there's all the zig-zag with finer lines on one of them prominent sulcus. And he said I am an intelligent person, that I wouldn't be in trouble a lot. And he did said I wouldn't live too long. But he pushed the thoughts away by saying, all these stuff cannot be trusted. It's just a prediction and it's not scientifically proven.
I asked to look at CH's palm. His so-called line of life is indeed longer than mine. Logically though, all those prominent sulcus on the palm are just marks of foldings. You ball up your fists since you were still in your mum's uterus, and it was from then the sulcus started to form. And of course, logically speaking, every baby is different. Just because the some baby's fists are balled up more, and his sulcus formed a longer line, he's going to live longer? It's like, it's not fair really.
As much as I find life is so not worth living at times, I still treasure my life. And I was hoping that I could live as long possible on this all too troubled world. Because there are still the finer things in this life, and this earth that are worth living for.
I'm troubled really... I still have so much to live...
And it's raining ever so heavily. Are the Gods angry I'm blogging about it? Is it a bad omen?
I had the opportunity to read a book, or a record sheet, something like the Book of Life where the whole life of a man is recorded. And as we all know, it's probably possible for a human beings to even listen to what was recorded about oneself when the 'judgement' is done. But somehow, I was given this once in a lifetime experience to travel into the realm after death where we get to see what we would be like. Perhaps, some angels visited me and gave me a forsee what my future holds.
So I see what I would be doing after I graduate. It was a relieve I would be able to graduate medical school. And there's all the details. Couldn't quite remember. I supposed there would be records of travelling, or some tiny achievements. Of course, those glorious history when I was in my teens. But, the record ends at the year 2030-ish. I was curious and asked how come there's no record after that year. And I was told, I was no more exist on earth.
I was shocked, to be honest. I did a mental calculations and to find that I would be dead even before I reach 50, it's quite a bad news. I mean, seriously?! How could I be dead so young? I'm too young to die! Really! It was a sad thing that I didn't find out what was my cause of death.
When I got back to reality, I was very troubled. I didn't tell my mum about it. But I was very worrisome. I kept thinking what happened. I couldn't possibly die so soon right? I had a whole long list of things I want to do. Travelling for one. And I don't recall that grand dream of myself having my own Bong Hospital coming true in that book. I sat down, losing hope. If I were to die so soon, why do I even bother wasting my time on books and grumbling how tough medical school is, when I could actually just quit and do what I like? Yes I almost gave up. Almost.
It was later on that I came up with some reasons why I should just accept that fact, and think of it not as something bad. At least I won't need to bear the pain of losing my parents. That I wouldn't need to worry about the future generations needing to live in a diseased-earth. That I don't have to live in the fear of uncomfortable weather and temperature. And I thought about that dream again. I would die young. It's still so unfair! I have so many dreams and ambitions, and how come I wasn't given the chance to go for them? But in the end, I decided it's not worth fretting. I'll just forget about the dream and continue living my life to the fullest.
And I woke up to see the familiar bed I went to sleep on the night before. It was just a dream. A troubling nightmare.
The following day, I told KK about my dream. I said I dreamt about me seeing my own future. That I would die VERY young. KK was puzzled. And I showed him my palm. "Gasps! Your life IS short!" And I started to feel troubled and irritated again.
There's the palm reading by all those men who tells you about fate and stuff. I don't know how to read, but Dad did take a look at my palm when I was younger. He said I would be very troubled with my life, that I'm emotional, that's why there's all the zig-zag with finer lines on one of them prominent sulcus. And he said I am an intelligent person, that I wouldn't be in trouble a lot. And he did said I wouldn't live too long. But he pushed the thoughts away by saying, all these stuff cannot be trusted. It's just a prediction and it's not scientifically proven.
I asked to look at CH's palm. His so-called line of life is indeed longer than mine. Logically though, all those prominent sulcus on the palm are just marks of foldings. You ball up your fists since you were still in your mum's uterus, and it was from then the sulcus started to form. And of course, logically speaking, every baby is different. Just because the some baby's fists are balled up more, and his sulcus formed a longer line, he's going to live longer? It's like, it's not fair really.
As much as I find life is so not worth living at times, I still treasure my life. And I was hoping that I could live as long possible on this all too troubled world. Because there are still the finer things in this life, and this earth that are worth living for.
I'm troubled really... I still have so much to live...
And it's raining ever so heavily. Are the Gods angry I'm blogging about it? Is it a bad omen?
9 Jujus:
Fret not about having a short life. Think about what you can achieve in that period! If you knew you were gonna leave Earth earlier, then it should be more motivation to do the things you want to do earlier.
Anyway, you might want to Google up a certain interesting book "The Four Lessons of Liao Fan" PDF It's a very short book and you can finish it in one reading. Guaranteed you'll be interested!
Dreams can be so annoying. I remember that I found an answer to "how and why I fall in love with him" and lots of other answers in a dream. When I started to realize it is a dream, I was in a state of excitement and so wanted to get up and record all those answers. But I gave up and continued to sleep. Then I fear I will forget the dream, as if "something"'s going to steal those answers.
When I finally woke up, I forgot all the other questions and answers. What I remember until now is that feeling of excitement and fear.
hmmm, bong, first time such a serius post...It is really soo serius man !!! haha..
i'm a great dreamer too, and kinda interprets meanings from them which were often true esp if i know they're from God! so this time, me not crapzing like always ya :P
well, long life or short doesnt really matter, but what u do now will affect you in ur afterlife- and the trouble is, that afterlife will not end (i.e : forever and ever)!!
'where u will go to live forever after this life ?' is probly the heart of the matter in your dream ler...it's definitely worth everyone's wonder and fear...you may even wanna check out on the gods and find out the Real One Who can give you peace into the future and beyond death ??? No offence ya, i mean, r u confident in the God u worship now can guarentee your afterlife to be good, esp within a shorter time to prepare for it??
Since ur strange dream indicates 'ur life is short' (gasp ! 'touch wood!'), probly a wise idea to 'book ur ticket in heaven' while u still can...how to book, gotta find the Right God ah. who knows if u found Him, He may decide to grant u more dayz or help u live happily :D Just make sure He is the Real God lah.
Don't take this kinda dream as a bad omen lah.. Looks like God is trying get your attention and giving you a chance that may change sum reality for the better??
God wor !! He must really care for you only He will try to speak to you in dreams mah...
Pleezze no offence ya Bong..me not the kind who will lie to friends just because the topic looks 'soi'. It'll b 'soi' if we don't share what we know to possibly remove 'soi-ness' hor...
mayb u can try praying something direct and simple like 'The True God Who gave me this dream, Whoever Wherever You Are, let me know You.' If you say it sincerely with all your heart, i'm sure He will hear :D
Ok. Them commenters above already give you good advice and support - so we shall give you alternatives.
If you end up dreaming where you head back to see your Book Of Life again, and this time the angels start slapping you about for not taking them seriously...
Take them a bit more seriously, only if so that you can appreciate life better. :P
Dreams are dreams at the end of the day. Don't take too much into it.
That is very disturbing but don't try to make something out of it. Its just a dream. If you are to die young, so? Everyone dies. Just make the best while you're still alive then.
Fretting is a waste of time.
I think it's pretty scary too to have such dreams when your life is at the best.
Start living your life to its fullest.
perhaps it was just some wake up call, a reminder maybe, that you should live more to the fullest of your life now. you'll be fine... besides, the life line thing, it's not something permanent. if you looked closely, the line will somewhat change, gradually, depending on some of your ultimate 'life' decisions as you go along. every step will affect the outcome, and so on.
don't know if that makes sense but that's how I looked at it. :)
hi zemien, thanks from dropping by. tried looking for that book, but can't seem to have it displayed properly.. :|
passerby... i knw.. tis is by far the most disturbing dreams i ever had. there are some i had when i was younger, about losing someone i love dearly, but to lose myself is as much as losing someone else. and i thought i wouldn't mind sacrificing my own life for the sake of others, but come to think of it, i think our lives are as important as others. :)
wah jane! preaching summore. hahaha... i find myself listening to the great compassionate mantra again last night. had to get a grip. suppose that did help. :D
janvier.. don't think dreams ever come back the same again. so yea, if i ever do dream of going back to that book again, i shall check if i have those dreams realized. :D :D :D
QR: i know i know! it's just a dream. but it's disturbing nonetheless. am not fretting, just troubled by the thoughts about it. :P
jason, i think i shall try to cut down on living life to the fullest. perhaps it might be a sign that i'd die young if i enjoy too much? Hahahahaha...
_butt, i googled palm reading, those lines are actually telling you what happened, and not what is to happen. so yeah.. i guess i'm fine. :D
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